Let go of having a calling

PENTECOSTAL LEFTOVERS | January 19, 2026

I grew up believing my life had to matter.

Not in the ordinary, human way. In the spiritual way.

The eternal way.

The destiny way.

I was told I was called. Set apart. Consecrated.

That God had a plan for my life and that it was my responsibility not to ruin it.

I learnt very early that ordinary was dangerous.

That rest was suspicious.

That a quiet life was a failure of faith.

And even when I left the church, that story stayed in my body.

It showed up as urgency.

As destiny anxiety.

As the fear of being insignificant.

As the sense that I was late for my real life.

Pentecostalism gave me many beautiful things.

But it also gave me a theology that trained me to live as if my life was not a place to stand, but a narrow path to stay on.

Over the years, I’ve come to understand that what we leave behind doesn’t always leave us.

Sometimes it becomes residue.

It lives in our nervous systems.

In our sense of worth.

In our relationship with rest.

In the way we measure our lives.

This new series inside The Practice Co is called

LETTING GO OF BEING CALLED.

It’s a 7-part devotional arc for anyone who has left calling culture but still feels its pressure.

It explores:

– the weight of being “called”

– the fear of the small life

– the grief of unlived lives

– the longing to finally be enough

– the way Jesus refuses greatness like a temptation

– and what it means to reclaim a life that belongs to you again

This isn’t about tearing down faith.

It’s about healing from it.

It’s about unlearning the story that says your life has to justify itself to be holy.

And learning how to belong to the days you’re already living.

The mystics have always known this.

Jesus lived this.

And so many of us are learning it slowly, painfully, beautifully, in midlife.

If you’re tired of chasing a destiny you no longer believe in.

If you’re weary of feeling late for your own life.

If you’re ready to make peace with the life that has taken shape around you.

This series is for you.

You don’t need a new calling.

You need your life back.

Always,

L xo